Little Gems

12/02/2001

Jury duty - one of those democratic institutions that has probably operated the same for eons.

Last time I did jury service i was selected for two trials. Maybe something about me comes across as being good jury material.

Mine was the first name out of the ballot and I didn't get challenged. I had to ask to be excused because the case was expected to go for 6 weeks! I am back at university in 2 weeks and I'm really looking forward to being back.

I sure hope I get loads of my web stuff finished by then.

Things are strained and in a muddle between Adrian and I at the moment. I love him, I love him, and I'm tired, tired of all the confusion, hurt, and miscommunication.

He might not feel or think the same way I do, but ignoring me does not work. Just because Adrian might consider what I think or feel is not important to him doesn't mean it's not important to me! And he'd better take notice when I'm unhappy or I'll walk my unhappy butt out the door and take a day away for some time out.

Being back at uni will resove some of this. I'll be reimmersed in my passion and kept busy and stimulated. We won't be in each other's faces all the time. It won't resolve Drin's issues that I don't meet his expectations with housework, or express affection towards him as much as he'd like.

15/02/2001 - A wonderful dinner in a beautiful setting. Today was very emotional.

Adrian and I have been so distant. I know he loves me and that he cares, but I need him to understand how lonely my life can be with him working nights.

I am feeling very peaceful at the moment.

19/02/2001 - Jury service over. I was able to stick with my beliefs about the case. Afterwards, one of the court staff agreed with me about my decision. I guess she's heard umpteen cases, so I felt a wee bit better.

07/03/2001 - I have very limited net time now that I'm back at university. I figure with family, the on call component with births, study, and assignments that there is little to spare to play. And my computer play time is split between the internet and Sims :D

"Hello!" *wave*

I'm still here. I just happen to be flat out busy with university. All I have time for is clearing my email, running the New Zealand midwives list, and some graphic work. Squeezed time has eliminated my own web page maintenance and my Net Sisters work.

Some fun web news - I have now got kiwinessie.com, and nzmidwife.net even though I have no time to set them up. I couldn't resist the low fees charged by Go Daddy so now maybe I am officially a domain addict?

Another piece of news. I am 1/3 of the way to achieving the 30 births required for my midwifery degree. 10 down and it's a relief to have progressed that far. I've got some Little Gems to add but they can wait until another day. Time for some sleep :D

I am currently a victim of too much to do and too little time. My web tasks are to keep moving my server stuff, Net Sisters charms, and New Zealand midwifery webring and list. Seems like I won't have everything done in 2 weeks when I go back to school.

We have accomplished something. We hadn't really properly sorted the kids rooms since we moved in. Today Lucas has his room all organised and arranged to Nessie-logic and Nessie-satisfaction. It's a bit annoying because I often hover between getting things done or leaving it until it can get done the Nessie-way =p

I have to add some Little Gems which are observations or journal entries that I have recorded on my Psion. I'd rather note it than lose it. Now I just have to remember to add them with some regularity :)

• 31 Jan 2001 - Now that I am Psionised, I'm trying to figure out how I can adapt it to my life.
  

• 1 Feb 2001 - There's no point complaining about spending quality time with family if on days off you go out of your way to spend time at work.
  

  I used to think it was my fault, but I think it's part of a whole feeling of indispensibility and it ticks me off.
  

• 4 Feb 2001 - I can't believe how many places I have addresses stored. I prefer electronic media but haven't had synchronisation capacity before so it's laborious transferring data from my old organiser to the Psion.
  

• 7 Feb 2001 - Saw "Crouching Tiger Hidden Dragon" with Hails. Definitely a girlie martial arts movie. Unlike "Charlies Angels" which was targeted at guys.

While looking for Psion links I came across this gem of a page. It's nice to see another perspective of our beautiful country. I've done a wee bit of kayaking, tramping and cycling around New Zealand as well. This reminded me of the fun I had :)

Please don't disappear BlogVoices... I don't have many comments, but I think it's a great tool and service.

We're doing a kid swap....lol

Our Amazon Girl is staying with her Aunt and Uncle for two nights and the two cousins are staying with us. I hope the kids get some sleep while having a bit of an adventure.

Drin and I are a bit lost at the moment. We have happy moments and really disconnected moments. Being tired doesn't help my ability to deal with life.

Misschief is copying Amazon Girl's tantrum and disagreement techniques. However, they don't have the desired effect. And if I even suggest that she is copying her sister, she denies it in the same strong manner ;-)

Does anyone else use the "no tears, so you're not really serious" measure? She's really trying, but other than her loud protests they won't come out. And she doesn't want a cuddle either...Love and space until she's ready!

Oh...and I'm thinking of changing my site title. I think The World of KiwiNessie is getting a bit long and a lot old. I'm thinking of "Webbed KiwiNessie" or "KiwiNessie Webbed" to sort of take into account the Nessie and Loch Ness monster approach with webbed feet or fins and a pun on my internet addiction.

I would love to hear other people's opinions...so please email me.

Blogger forgot to send my post and December hasn't archived.....ggrrrrrr......

Still working at snail's pace.

Last night was my baby sister's 21st birthday dinner. It was fantastic, and she was let off lightly because I didn't put a baby or bare butt pic in the paper. I have one too... She said that she feels old, but she is at the start of a long life of fun and challenges.

It seems as though now that we have all passed into adulthood, we should be putting childish things away. Mum didn't seem too traumatised by the whole event.

We've had my sister and her children staying with us. It has been a great opportunity to have some great family time and reacquaint ourselves. Little baby Samuel has decided to start walking and it was a real privilege to be a part of that. I hope my sis got some of the time out she needed to recharge her batteries.

The reformat is done at last. The most time consuming part was the backing up and burning of my data. However, it has left me in a predicament. The faster computer is having modem problems. I also can't find a driver for the Rockwell modem. The Conexant site should have them, but it's really slow to load :p

Another predicament is whether we upgrade or buy another computer... Drin spat the dummy when I suggested we spend $1000 (in addition to the $500 we are getting for the 333) to get a brand new 666. I think it's a sensible idea. The 166 slowpoke can stay as a computer for school stuff and kids stuff, as well as keeping the CD Writer in it. The new one could run the games and graphics...and we would get a warranty with it.

So what do I do with my fun net stuff? Making graphics, email, and my Net sisters stuff? Put it all onto the slow computer, and grind it to a halt... Looks like I will have to until we resolve the whole situation. And it needs a reformat or tweaking first because the registry has some errors from the person who was borrowing it. I'm really keen on getting a new computer...really keen!

My sis arrives tomorrow to stay with us for a week. I'm really looking forward to it. Just limits the net time. At least I got the reformat done before she arrives. That was the plan!

I'm a "reformat virgin" so this site was a huge help.

I seem to reside in tiredness that comes and goes. So I picked sleep for health and happiness as my New Year's resolution.